Please, help me understand this email... Thank you so much!

Uf, maze eyn li matzav ruah ahshav.... maze obidno biglal kol a baayot aele ba yamim aahronim.... afilu zain al a sigaryot- ani yodaat she i yada she ani meashenet midey paam, ve kvar mimizman, od az kshe ainu be junior... aval kol a keta aze shel etmol arag oti... ze beemet lo she anahnu nifgashot itah kol kah arbe... ani paam rishona meaz she ahzarnu abayta yatzati kaha yomaim be retzef, ve kaha she ani yahzor abayta be 8 baboker bihlal af paam lo asiti.. net sorry yashavnu im genya ba yom she ima matza et a sigaryot ba tik... ki pashut bila hrenova ve lo yaholti lashevet babait... ve gam ken i yodaat she ani sonet linsoa mea bait kshe anahnu baim le rak eyze kama shvuot... le umat roman she lo ehpat lo mi ze, ve maadif linsoa le mekomot.. blyat lo yehola.... afilu aba ayom kshe ba abayta le shaa ve yashavnu dibarnu (can you believe it???) u amar she u maskim im ma she ima amra etmol, aval u lo maskim im ze she i tzoeket rak alay, ve roman ose ma she ba lo, ve bekoshi omer she u nosea lean sheu (kmo she ze aya be yom shishi balayla) ve lo af ehad lo omer klum... ve ze beseder gamur...
kusemek- taazri latzet mize... o she od apaam yom-yomaim bli matzav ruah yaafhu li le depresiya shel shvuaim... espik li kvar paam ahat aharey alifut a olam....